Last week my wife substitute-teached, and got sick. This is not atypical–school starts and those places are bedlams for viruses. She was very ill, having to sleep downstairs sitting upright. But she has a piss-poor immune system so she’s sick a lot. On Friday night, as I was exercising, I felt dry in the nose and a little shaky in the muscles. I thought, yeah, I think she gave me her disease. Saturday I woke up and my body was devoid of energy. Couldn’t do anything, had no motivation to do anything. Just wanted to lay down and do nothing. So I did. Sunday I felt 50% better, but wasn’t…
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Slave to the Meds
My worst fear isn’t the apocalypse. It’s that the apocalypse will occur and I won’t have access to my meds. I have a feeling I’m not the only one with this fear. So many of us are dependent on pharmacies right now. Not just old people with high blood pressure regulated or arthritis. There are people with life-threatening diseases like diabetes and asthma and cancer and liver disease. And not just life-threatening physical diseases, but mental as well. People with depression and anxiety and bipolar and borderline. They don’t need these to survive but they need them to function in society. To feel well. To feel normal. Now imagine that…
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February Failed
I’m not feeling too proud of myself right now. I tried to do a sober February and failed less than halfway through. December is usually rough with all the social events, but it seems to be getting worse each year. What I mean is I’m getting worse each year. I just want to crawl into a ball and not put on that social disguise anymore. No one seems sincere, no one talks about anything but themselves. January hasn’t been too keen either with the cold weather and post-holiday letdown. I used to like the cold, but either these Minnesota winters are getting worse or I’m getting less tolerant in my…
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So What’s Going On Lately?
I know you all get sick of my posts about Marvel heroes I don’t know and movie junk. The authorship is going okay. I’ve found a way to combine writing and not writing at the same time. Merm-8 should be getting re-released pretty soon by eTreasures publishing. We recently got Disney Infinity for our Wii U. Well, my wife really got it as a birthday present to herself, but I’ve been playing when I can. It’s like Kingdom Hearts but simpler. It’s just the co-operative multi-gameplay I’ve been wanting. Too bad it’s now defunct. Collecting the merchandise has been an interesting experience. On one hand, it’s super-discounted. On the other,…
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Daughter’s Treasure Island
So I try to write about positive things as much as I can. But as you know, it’s difficult. It’s much easier to point out what’s wrong with something that what’s right with it. Because what’s right, the good stuff, should be there by default. We only notice when it’s not there. But that makes positive memories hard to come by. So I store them when I can. So I’m reading Treasure Island to my seven-year-old for bedtime these days. It’s not the actual text, it’s an adapted version for… children? Lazy readers? People of the future who won’t know antiquated words? Anyway, it’s this one. Judge for yourself. I’ll…
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Some HP Recovered
Thankfully, some consistent days on writing, bearing down on my to-do list, and upping my doses of medication, and I seem to have recovered somewhat from the disappointments of writing. Still haven’t gotten any agent bites, but at least I resolved my query letter. Whether it’s better or not, I don’t know. I’m still working on the princess crossover. It’s getting damn large. I understand how some writers can write 500,000 word epics, but I don’t know how they revise it. Mine’s only up to 146,000, but the idea of going back through it all is intimidating. I worry about the time consumption. But I figure as long as I’m…
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My Birthday List – 1992
As a bonus to my Christmas list, here are the items on my birthday list for 1992. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles III: The Manhattan Project [Nintendo game] ($39.00) This is on my “most memorable/influential-on-my-life video games”. And I recall getting it from my paternal grandparents of all people. These were the people who got me the Alf game for the Mac. My dad must have to lead him step-by-step on how to buy it. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Duelin’ Dudes I eventually got this for Christmas (I think). It’s just Rock ‘Em Sock ‘Em robots. The problem is that one guy’s head always gets a little looser than the…
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My Lasik
I got Lasik a few days ago. No particular reason. My eyes had stopped changing so dramatically and the idea of zapping your eye so you don’t need glasses EVER AGAIN was appealing to me, as an eighteen-year-old. But the surgery was so new, I imagined of Jack Napier’s transformation in a back alley. Now I’m thirty-three, and it seems like the procedure’s had the bugs hammered out, even for someone with my dense prescription (I couldn’t even get the cool glasses that don’ have frames, just ear holders glued to the lenses). So in November I went through exam after exam after exam, just about all of them some…
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Resolutions
I told my wife I had no New Year’s resolutions this year. After some time in January thinking about it, I realize I was wrong. I do want to do some things that will improve my personhood. I’m not sure why this came to me. Maybe Christmas burned me out. Maybe after Merm-8 dropped, the thrill has diminished. Blog popularity is down, writing is tepid. Maybe I’m looking for something to do besides watching Parks & Recreation every night (although it’s worth it). Option One: Learn Guitar I keep drifting in and out of music. My dad played music all his life — guitar and accordion. Played rhythm guitar in…
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Shelfie!
Shelfie!
