For the past month, I’ve been going over lore, reading the comics, and sighing mournfully over videos. Why? What is it about this video game that fascinates me so? It’s not the competition, I don’t care one whit for pro gaming. I’ve tried watching competitions on ESPN and I can’t keep track of what’s happening.
It must be the lore. Mostly it’s the beautiful art and amazing diversity of characters. The game play is nothing new. Everything’s on this side of Team Fortress, which I’m not that fond of (no one works as a team when I play). But the aesthetic is unprecedented. It’s bright and cheerful. It looks like a theme park. The characters are a blend of women, men, white, non-white, atypical sexual orientation, mental health, human, non-human, and non-living.
This is a game where everyone should be an angry space marine. But Blizzard stomped all over that and said “Here, here’s an Egyptian sniper. And this is a Brazilian DJ. And a Russian female bodybuilder. And a British lesbian. And an autistic voluntary amputee from India. And a space gorilla!”
There’s no demo, so I can’t tell if it would run on my computer. Given the not-so-great performance of Assassin’s Creed: Black Flag and Batman: Arkham Knight, I’m thinking not so much. Someday when I get a new computer, I’ll probably download it. But until then, all I can do is wistfully stare at the fan art.
These days, I feel obligated to include people of color (PoC) in my works, because the SF community is really bearing down on publications and works that don’t include them. There’s no particular target but anyone who exhibits the slightest tint towards misogyny, even in jest (I’m thinking of the Hugo host kerfuffle) gets eliminated. And anyone in one of these minorities will always tell you how there needs to be more representation.
Jim C. Hines recently had a 2 week series of guest bloggers talking about this. People of all sorts of genders, non-genders, sexual orientations, ethnicities, mobilities (handicapped), mentalities (autism), medical conditions (albinism). And basically, all of them really just wanted more and fair representation in fiction. Not the evil albino, not the asexual wheelchair guy, not the white princesses, not the war-like Muslim, and more than binary representation of gender. (Didn’t see any religion on the list. Is no one suppressing Jews anymore?) They’re good posts and I learned a lot.
Thing is, there’s no way I can do what they want me to do.
I know Jim C. Hines is trying to spread awareness, but it feels like white writer’s guilt. Like if I don’t include at least one of these minorities in my work, I’m screwing up. Well, if I write about dwarves, am I supposed to make one of them black? Do I have to explicitly state that then? Do I have to give that black dwarf black characteristics? And if I do, what would those be in a fantasy setting? They don’t have urban culture in Rivendell. Just what am I supposed to do?
I’m xenophobic. I have no problem with any of the above divisions. If I think of a story that involves them, I will write it, but I usually don’t. My characters tend to be more hubs around a plot. I almost included a handicapped character in my latest novel, but I cut her out because she became extraneous (but plenty of potential to put her in for the potential sequel). Whether I “got her right” or not is meaningless. But I’m too afraid of screwing it up farther if I actively write about minorities, because I just don’t know enough about their lifestyle.
I live in a Minnesota suburb, which is not known for its diversity. I don’t know anyone within one degree of separation who’s of a non-binary gender. I’m not a product of divorce. I have no childhood traumas to draw from. I don’t know anyone of a non-Christian religion. I don’t know anyone handicapped. I don’t know anyone with an autism-like learning disorder. I don’t know anyone with a medical condition that affects their ability to work or integrate with people. Except for the Indians I work with, no one really talks about their background.
Everyone I know are white males and females, married, dual-income, starting families with 2-3 kids and/or dogs. I can’t write what I don’t know. And one person’s story won’t be another’s. I don’t think you could be taken seriously with a lesbian, red-haired midget, but they do exist (Ashley from Pit Boss). I can’t be the writer those minorities want me to be. Any different race or type I write would be in name only. And morally speaking, would you rather I write about over-represented peoples or under-represented peoples wrong?
But I guess the onus is not on me to provide stories with under-represented people in them. It’s on editors to accept stories from under-represented authors and/or containing under-represented characters. What I don’t see is two weeks of guest blog posts from editors and publishers about diversity.
It appears that people are writing the stuff, but they’re either not getting picked up or not getting marketed. I’m sure there’s a reason, and I’d like to know what that is. I just know that if you’re looking for diversity, you won’t find it here.